Misery Business

Back when I passed Level I there was a joke thrown out in a video lecture. Went something like this:

"I hope wherever you are right now accounting is your date on Friday night. You can't go to a movie, you can't go to a bar. The more miserable you are, the more likely you are going to pass the exam."

There may be some truth to that. Right now I am owning up to my responsibilities and being a good candidate, though my social life is mostly non existent. But on the whole, I'm at peace. That is a key difference from Level II last year. Last year I was pissed for about 12 months after I got dumped the day after the exam by a girlfriend of three years. I was also under a lot of pressure to close on a house in time to complete a 1031 exchange. Those two factors sucked away the desire to study. It made LII impossible following a Dec 07 LI passing exam, and two weeks before the exam I felt so burnt.

Though I'm content with my dedication, there seems to be so much information behind me that I am afraid I will forget. There seems to be so much more between now and the exam I still need to learn. But I think back to LI and 3 weeks before the exam it wasn't clicking yet on the practice exams, and then I was able to turn it up. So I need to stick to the game plan, stay on pace in this marathon with enough juice to kick through the finish line sprinting with all I have.

Sure, passing an exam like this can absolutely suck sometimes. But just like everything, this experience has so much opportunity. Sacrifice is rewarded. Self respect is earned through self discipline. The lessons in dedication this experience offers are transferable and will allow me to see into myself and discover what I have in me. This is an opportunity to grow. The dedication to goal and purpose shown in this exam should reflect in all things I do, and all things I do should reflect in my dedication to this single goal.